Monday, March 21, 2011

First Day at Corcoran

Today was my first day at Corcoran. I feel like it was a whirlwind. There was so much going on and so much to learn. At the same time, there was little for me to do. It'll take me some time to get the hang of everything. At Sinai, I knew all the assistants, the extensions, the locations. Now I have to start all over. That's scary! There were moments today when I second guessed myself. There were times when I thought that maybe I should have stayed at Sinai because it was comfortable and familiar. I know that these feelings are common. I also know that you need to challenge yourself in order to grow. It'll just take time.

The people are great so far. Tresa, one of my two bosses, is amazing. She has a very calming presence. She's a firecracker and has a great sense of humor. I think it's going to be great working with her. Nora, my other boss' full time assistant, seems very nice. I think she and I will work well together. Martha and Jackie are the two girls that sit in my area. Martha does event planning and Jackie does PR. They both seem great and very sweet. I'm hoping that we become friends. Wow, that sounds dorky. There are two guys that sit in my area - Andrew and Matt (Mike?). They're fun, but they mostly do their own thing. Lastly, Ann also works in PR. She's a little bit older, but seems very nice. She reminds me a lot of Susan Alter, so I think we'll get along. I feel a bit like an outsider, though I’m sure I felt that way when I first started at Sinai. Pam, my other boss, was out today. She's obviously the one that I really need to impress, so I'll be intimidated for quite a while.

I hate this feeling of “newness”. I want to know everything and be great right away. Feeling unsure and uncomfortable is not fun. I feel like I’ll be asked a million questions and unable to answer any of them. But that’s normal, right? I just need to take it one day at a time. I’m still very nervous, but also very excited. I think (and hope and pray) that this is the start of something great.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Ice Cream Cake :-)

So much has happened in the past few weeks. As cliche as it sounds, it really has been a rollcoaster of emotions. I'm so excited to start my new job and I'm relieved that I won't have to worry as much about my finances. I'm also so scared because there will be much more pressure with this new job. At Sinai, I know everyone's name, extension, etc. Now it's like starting all over again.

But there there is one overall prevailing emotion - love. I have some amazing people in my life and I'm so grateful for them. When Michele called me about the job, she told me how that it was great and how happy she was for me. I told her about the details and everything and I'll always remember what she said. She said, "I'm really proud of you, Bobby". It was just the sincerety and honesty in her voice that brought me to tears. I had to fight to get the words out to respond. My dad said the same thing and it struck a chord with me as well. I'm sure it has something to deal with being gay and feeling like I need to prove something.

One of the most meaningful gestures was on Friday when I was hanging out with Antonio. I had mentioned previously that I love ice cream cake. It's quite possibly my favorite dessert. He had remembered that and surprised me with a this cake. It was so incredibly sweet in both in taste and sentiment. I am so incredibly lucky! It's an amazing feeling to be with someone who is both a best friend and partner.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Bigger and Better

It's so surreal that just a month ago I was writing about feeling trapped and unable to move forward in life. Let's jump ahead to 6:30 this past Monday evening. My phone rings and the HR director at my dream company is offering me a full-time position. How did I get here? It's such a crazy, serendipitous story.

I realized after walking past a real estate office several times on my way home from work that real estate is something I am really interested in. I began to apply for part-time and full-time positions. I got a call about a weekend receptionist position on the lower east side. I met with the manager and must have really impressed him because he mentioned my name to the HR director at the larger company within the same family of companies. She gave me a call and said that she'd really like to meet me.

I met with her under the impression that it was regarding the weekend position. She told me that she didn't think that position was right for me. She said, however, that there was an opening for a full time position as the assistant to the Executive Vice President, Director of Sales. She explained that the position would also report to the President / CEO of the company. I was instantly shocked and I believe my jaw hit the floor when she mentioned the starting salary. In that same meeting, I met with another of the VPs and he seemed to really like my personality too.

I went back last week to meet with the President / CEO. I watched all her videos on the company's YouTube channel. Walking into her office was such a surreal moment. It almost felt like meeting a celebrity. I'll admit that I was very nervous and I think that it came through. I tried my best to be my normal, personable self and that must have worked. When we were done, she said that she wanted me to come back on Monday to meet with the Executive Vice President, Director of Sales. I later found out that she really like my enthusiasm and was impressed that I was familiar with the company's social networking and iPhone app.

This past Monday, I met with Executive VP. She was such a warm and friendly woman. It seemed less like an interview and more like a casual conversation. I think that I began to realize that I could do the job and would excel in the company. It'd been my third time to the office so my nerves were much calmer. The President / CEO happened to walk by and needed to talk to the VP for a second. She told me that it was good to see me, that she loved my tie and then she gave me a little shove on the shoulder. I...died.

I was on cloud 9 as I took the bus back to Sinai. The HR director told me that she'd give me a call that day or the next day, so I anxiously waiting with my phone attached to my hand. Finally, I got the call at 6:30 this past Monday. They offered me the position. I was shaking. It was such a powerful moment. I could literally feel my world change. I had just been handed my dream job at my dream company with a very generous salary. It felt like a dreaming come true.

All the struggles and stress of the past year and a half have paid off. I won't have to struggle to buy groceries or have trouble finding my own studio apartment. I feel like the world's largest door is in front of me and I've just been handed the key.